maybe I should just break all of my opinions and morals and go buy a pack of cigarettes, steal alcohol from my parents and just drive out and sit under a tree and get completely wasted. Ooor I could go and shag with someone who just wants to shag who’s name I don’t even know. Maybe then I’ll get some fucking purpose with my life, or at least I’ll have something to talk about…
I don’t know what to do anymore. I seriously have no fucking clue what to do. I just feel so fucking alone it’s sickening.
someone just let me restart my life
and I don’t want it to end ehehe. i’m going to bed now though. listening to merlin soundtrack until I fall alseep. Give me colourful forests and rain and dark nights! (Not that we haven’t had rain this summer.. it’s ONLY rained this summer but rain is so much more appreciated during autumn.) I want eat apples straight from the trees in the garden. I want to have darker nights and mornings. I want Halloween and pies and tea!