you know the feeling when everyone around you sort of have a sweetheart or boy/girlfriend? yeah, yeah, and here I am, still acting like a twelve year old, doomed to be forever alone.
Imma go to bed now because I begin a new job tomorrow, living da adult life ya know.
Why am I on tumblr again? I was meant to be writing. Characters, drama, words! But no, instead I’m reblogging gifs from the CF red carpet in London and have a lot of Remus Lupin-feels. I also make stupid rants like this that will lead to me losing followers, or gaining new ones, in which case: Hello!
I don’t want to walk around in bikini with super skinny girls who I barley know and stuff.. because just no.. But it’s my friends party so I should go because it could be fun and I should be there in about an hour and a half but I’m really really not looking forward to it right now…
Sigh… Right, I can do this. First step; take a shower because I look like a slob…
It’s unbelievable… this year has passed so quickly…
Let’s talk about Remus Lupin for a second. And by “let’s” I don’t actually mean “let us” I mean “bear with me while I.” Because this man is seriously underappreciated. He gets overshadowed by Sirius, whose charisma shines through the page somehow.
I mean, everyone thinks Sirius was James’ best friend…
So here’s this kid, a wizard kid who I think was probably quiet and bookish already and looking forward to Hogwarts more than anything in the world like everyone else, and then he gets bit by Fenrir Greybeck because his dad pissed someone off. And all his dreams go down the drain and it’s awful. But by some miracle named Albus Dumbledore, he gets to go anyway. And his life sucks, and he keeps his head down, but then he gets adopted by these two kids who just pick him up out of nowhere. James and Sirius, charismatic, popular, fun, daring — they’re everything lil bb Remus isn’t, but they like him anyway. And then they figure out his “furry little problem,” but they don’t leave him. Instead, they risk everything to join him, even dragging little Peter along with them. And suddenly Remus has everything — he has best friends, adventures every month; he’s a prefect; he basks in the popularity of his friends. And for seven years, life is golden.
And then he graduates, and things are tough because he’s suddenly faced with the fact that there is so much prejudice against werewolves, something he’s been able to ignore while at school. And to make things worse, there’s a war on, and everyone he knows and loves is involved. And he’s scared all the time, and he can’t even trust the people he loves best. And then James and Lily are killed, and they’re only 21 years old, and their kid is orphaned. And Sirius betrayed them and then he kills little Peter and goes to Azkaban and Remus is the only one left and the golden years are gone forever.
And twelve years later, Dumbledore gives him the chance no one else will give him again and he’s teaching James’ kid and he’s so like James, and Remus helps him and befriends him and one day in his office little Harry Potter says, “I heard my dad this time” and it’s like James is there, just for a moment. And then his old map shows up again, and one night Peter is there, and Remus knows, and he goes and he finds Sirius and it’s like a tiny bit of that golden happiness is returned to him. And for two years, he has his best friend back before he’s ripped away forever this time, fighting the same damn war as before. And then a new bright point appears, but don’t call her Nymphadora, but he is so scared to let her love him because everyone who loves him reaches a terrible end and he can’t give her anything. He values himself so little, first as a husband, then as a father, that Harry has to chase him back to his family. And good thing too, because finally Remus is able to get some happiness, with Tonks and Teddy, even in the middle of everything, and then he gives it all up to win that damn war.
Remus Lupin is a quiet kind of BAMF, and I love him, and you should too.
I love this.
And then he dies, which is so sad given that he finally had Tonks and little Teddy. But then again, “To the well organized mind, death is but the next great adventure,” the “miracle” said. I honestly love Remus more than Sirius. I love Sirius too, but Remus is closer to my heart.
I just love how Rowling’s characters are so different from each other. They’re all lovable and special in their own different ways.
I hate it, I don’t want to feel like this person is slowly crawling back into my life again. Why does this always happen? I can’t deal with this all over again.. just, aargh! It’s just.. I don’t even know.. fucked up people are fucked up.
I miss being on tumblr all of the time… So here I am!
My Christmas has been absolutely brilliant and I’ve received way to many presents for my own good (I can’t recall being good enough all year for all of these but yeah..) And I finally got the DHpt2 DVD and my heart is still crying because of that Remus/Tonks deleted scene.. WHY.WOULD.THEY.MAKE.SOMETHING.OUT.OF.PERFECTION.AND.THEN.CUT.IT.OUT!?
I don’t understand the movie industry sometimes, like now. And that’s why books are awesome and that’s why I hate when my teachers always refers to the saying ‘kill your darlings’ .. stupid teachers..
And speaking of books I got The Perks of Being a Wallflower as a christmaspresent from my uncle and I’ve read through more then half of the book already, it’s amazing and I really have to force myself to put the book down to go and you know, eat, and do unimportant things like that! So glad that the internet and Emma Watson (hrm, what me being a fangirl?) made my curiosity put that book on my wishlist for Christmas!
Anyways… Hi, I’m back, hopefully, I’ve missed you and I love you. Yes. I.. yep. I don’t want to sleep so do what you do best and fill that dashboard with stuff I love, thank you and hope you all had a lovely Christmas with people you love!
Weeeeell, I am quite booked because I’ve just lit like more then twentyeight candles in my house, I’m now sitting in a room with all of these candles checking out awesome graphics and other sweet things here on tumblr. And then I’m thinking on playing some the sims, or just try to figure out a god damn name for my main character for NaNoWriMo..
And oh yeah, I’m probably gonna stay on skype all night, drinking coke or hot chocolate and having so much cramp in my tummy it’s not even funny. (Darn you periods…I ship you with bored dementors!)
So as you see my FRIDAY is gonna be pretty awesome! I know you wanted to know this.. ;D